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Lunch on Rush Pond from left to right: Bruce Van Allen, Jeff Kann, Allen Starr and Michael Cosgrove. (Photo by Tom Cosgrove) |
By Tom Cosgrove
The Daily Yonder
Starr Lodge
Four of us sleep in borrowed beds at Starr Lodge; the fifth, our host — the one who left our Pennsylvania town decades ago for northern Maine — sleeps in his own with his wife.
Before the alarm rings, the truck is already loaded: two canoes strapped down, chairs wedged in, decoys packed, guns cased, a cooler full of food.
Up at 3:30 a.m., we move through the familiar motions.
No matter how many times we’ve done this, or how old we’ve become, there’s still a charge in the air. A quiet boyishness. A flicker of anticipation we pretend we’ve aged out of, but haven’t.
It’s the same energy we felt at twelve, finally old enough to hunt with our fathers — only now with the weight of time. We know these trips aren’t endless. We know how many parents we’ve buried. We know each other’s triumphs and losses. We know the years ahead are fewer than the ones behind.
Climbing into the truck, we recognize something sacred: we don’t assume we’ll all be here next year.
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Bruce Van Allen in the bow of a canoe paddling toward the take out. (Photo by Tom Cosgrove) |
First LightBy 5:30 a.m., the five of us are at Rush Pond.
Two canoes — one with two of us, one with three.
Never perfectly balanced, but always enough.
We push off in the dark.
The sky is a deep, endless gray.
Headlamps off, eyes adjusting.
Paddles dipping in and out: the only melody for miles.
We glide upstream, almost silently. The cold air stings just enough to remind you you’re alive.
We split into two spots, set the decoys, and settle into chairs.
And then, a miracle modern life almost never allows:
We sit still.
No notifications.
No meetings.
No cell phone calls.
Just breath, water, woods.
The rush at Rush Pond isn’t adrenaline.
It’s presence — the clarity that comes when nothing competes for your attention except your own heartbeat and the friends sitting ten yards away, doing exactly the same thing.
This Year, Nothing HappensNo ducks committed.
No geese.
No shots fired.
The pond offered itself, nothing more.
But nothing is ever nothing.
This “uneventful” day will outlast most of the “important” ones because it held:
hours of quiet company,
old stories retold and new ones added,
proof our bodies can still do this,
updates on family and friends,
honest conversations that stay on the pond,
silences that don’t feel empty,
the rare sense of being exactly where you’re meant to be.
Eight hours slipped by in a way modern hours never do.
Time didn’t race or drag.
It simply moved with us.
The Photograph
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Jeff Kann towing Michael Cosgrove and Allen Starr to the pull out. (Photo by Tom Cosgrove) |
On the paddle back, Bruce and I reached shore first.
Jeff, without a word, stepped into the water and began towing Michael and Allen’s canoe toward land.
I snapped the picture: one man, boot-deep in the river, rope in hand, pulling friends who’ve been part of his life for more than half a century.
It could have been any of us.
On a different day, it would’ve been.
That’s what decades do — they rotate the burden.
No drama.
No complaints.
Just selflessness.
The photograph captures what the hunt was never about — not ducks, not sport, not success — but friendship in its simplest form: someone stepping in to pull the load.
The Real RushThere’s always a moment on these trips when the truth hits:
We don’t get this forever.
We don’t get each other forever.
We don’t get mornings like this forever.
The rush at Rush Pond isn’t the hunt.
It’s the awareness:
We are here.
Today, all five of us are here.
No one is sick.
No one is grieving.
No one is missing.
No one is gone.
In a country where loneliness has become an epidemic — especially among men — showing up for each other isn’t nostalgia.
It’s survival.
It’s medicine.
It’s meaning.
Friendship isn’t the garnish.
It’s the meal.
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| Rush Pond (Photo by Tom Cosgrove) |
What We Bring HomeBy late afternoon, we reach the take-out.
We load the boats.
Peel off waders.
Toss the gear into the truck.
Head to the house — still connected, still talking, just warmer.
No ducks.
No tailgate trophies.
Nothing to freeze or brag about.
What we bring home is different:
Five men still able to gather,
decades of shared history,
the memory of a quiet pond,
the comfort of presence,
the joy of not being alone in the world.
No guarantees for next year.
No guarantees for tomorrow.
Just this day, this year, this trip, this moment. Maybe that’s the real rush —
the rare awareness that today was enough, and you lived every second of it.
This article first appeared on The Daily Yonder and is republished here under a Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.